Beauty and the BEAST!!!!

I couldn't control myself. I will burst if I don't tell this to someone. My friends are all working now and I'm the only slacking one. When all of them came back complaining how tired they were at work today, I couldn't hold back but to tell them how "goyang-ing kaki" my day was. Sarcastic. I did that on purpose. Who ask you to brag? Stupid. Anyway, back to the topic. Was fb-ing earlier and came across a friend's status. Bunch of hooligans I got to knw few months back. ERRR ..... it's all right to say la. Don't think they will notice this. tsk tsk. SHIT. I alwis have a hard time concentrating on one topic. BACK BACK.

Well, yeah status. I was dead surprised. Went thru the guy and the girl's profile. ONE WORD. wtf. Beauty and the Beast only happens in fairytales. Ya la, although I'm a beauty and my ex a BEAST also. It's stupid, real stupidddd. C'mon I'm pissed because he tripled-play. And with that looks of his? Not fair! YOu should hv seen the guy. Esp when he eats. Takde table manners one, and what ever that comes out from his mouth. Every sentence is inserted with one or even two vulgar words. NO. I'm not the same. My wtf used here does not relate to the swear expression of "what the fuck". I kind of got infected by some friends and esp COUSINS who thinks that wtf equals to only letter w t f which does not mean anything at all. wtf is infectious. ANYWAY, I just couldn't stop myself from gossiping now. NOthing else better to do. Don't bitch if you see this. As though you're a saint and never bitches. BIG DURH. Am I violating fb's policy by commenting out here? NAH who cares.

Beauty and the BEASTTTTT - My favourite FAIRYTALE

Why you blog ??

It's trendy to blog. You are a loser if you don't. LAME, SOoooo LAME. Earlier my bff complained that my blog is not BIMBO enuf. Too emo, too serious. wtf wtf. Then of course la I told her to show me what's the x-rated bimbo blogsss. You know, I don't like to be chinchai with things that I'm seriously obsessed with, which daddy always say it's 3-minutes hot, like hot fast food. But anyhow, I go peeping into those blogs she mentioned, and wtf, I start finding excuses la. So free arrr those ppl? Nothing else better to do is it?

NO offense. It's annoying to see some ppl blogging so amazingly, with beautiful photos, gadgets, colorful pages. But the problem now is, I have trouble looking away from those blogs. Eyes glued, backside glued, mouth wide-open. Ya la, some ppl have got no trouble expressing. MEeeeee??? Of coz I dont too. BUT la dis guy say that my mouth and my brain process at a different time. WTH? So sometimes I just keep my mouth shut, jaga image a little bit mar. piuuttt. SEE? EMO again.

I get frustrated when ppl say I talk or laugh too loud. Like yesterday, when I was telling my koko over some cheap skate stuff, and I got excited, jumping up and down, he have the nerve to cut me off midway telling me that I talk too wtf loud. pisssseddd. Noise pollution smr. Papa's TV is even noisier, louder. My level of frequency cannot cover that ok? He's not the first to tell me this. But what could you do if you cannot control your excitement. Understand "excited"? Get a dictionary if you don't. E X C I T E D. There, I spelt it out for you already. Again, I HATE IT WHEN YOU SAY I TALK TOO LOUD. It's annoying.

Since I've started on this topic, I might just elaborate a little bit more. O yeah, another one another one. I hate it when people pushes my head, either you use your two fingers or even three. It looks stupid when your head gobble to the left and right and back to position. I find this immensely rude. So stop it.

I'll save the rest for another day. Plus I don't have photos to post now.

Thought for a day

At 10 past 12, finally resolving to the last task of the day, BLOGGING. Yeah, again. Nah, I will refrain myself from using profanities or even lament bout how nuts the day had been. Or even mention bout how furious I had been at some Bi*yatch. Piece of cake. *Giggling*. Wanted to spend time over the latest hit movie "2012", to see what the fuss had been about. However, KINDA got ditched, TWICE smr. BASKET. In the end, retreated to online movies instead. Pathetic huh? Sigh. Jeez, gotta get things moving. Had been sitting pretty for the past couple of months whilst paperwork had been piling mountain high on my chest. Breathe, breathe .... *Gasping for air*

Piiiisssseeeddd OFF

For weeks, I had been going round in circles, aimlessly. Weeks turned into months. Everything seems wrong. Prolly it wasn't rong, it just wasn't right. Started to doubt myself in many aspect, if this is right, if this is wrong, if I should do this, that etcetera. What the heck happened to me, I kept interrogating. I walk around, without a soul, mind deep in thoughts. All I could say is, dis is one hell of a time. SOMETIMES i wld giv myself a break. It didn't last long. MInutes was it. I wasn't aware, dat I myself, didn't know myself that well. Whatmoreelse some Farking strangers? Profanity it is now.

I reminisced, 5 years back , when i was in my sweet teen, thoughts fair and pure. Everything was white in my sight. No black spots. Definitely not gray. How happie. I want to believe in this. Till the day I got caverned *touch wood! pantang me.lol* However, time and over again, TROUBLE with a BIG S just lurrvveesss knocking on my door. AND time and over again, I never fail to troublesomely get associated with it. Took a step back, forgave TROUBLES, pertained my so-called "Good Nature", branded with "Good Gurrllyyy". WTF!? To be exact, I'm sick of it. PS just said, prolly I wasn't born to live a tranquil life. Well, I did try my best to step out of them, for years. But they wouldn't leave me alone.

I remember-ed years ago, during my first depressing moment, whn fren decided she wld rather get a candy, sold me off, it was den I got myself my first little bb. I knew how betrayal felt like. BB was thr, I got attached, emotionally-attached I mean. Got detached, went thru couple years of self-isolation, turned into a different homo-sapien for god's sake. Recently, a fren decided she would get a candy too, sold me off again. I guess I did hv a Fark-up life.

A friend once said, it wasn't tough facing problems, BUT the courage to confront yourSELF. I'm finding it, the courage he said. I never cease to remember his words for I had endured endless hurtful moments, however , standing UPRIGHT STILL. A big *SIGH*. It is so hard to understand oneself. So obscure. Ppl murmured low, like wind whispering, in my ears, how I shld behave, act, talk. It's a pain in the arse at times. I'm confused, as I am now trapped, low in the BIG 3 "emotionally, mentally, physically" state. Another big SIGH. This will go through, I know, But how I want it to go through? It will soon be over, however obscure, dark it is. HALT! I don't want to walk on for years and years, in the future, and lament that I shld hv done dat instead of dis. How i shape it now shapes my future thoughts, mentally & emotionally.

More time to think? Darn. First thing first. According to the "7 habits of a highly-effective ppl" by Stephen Covey, PUT FIRST THING FIRST. Ppl dont learn, do they? I wld just have to throw all of this behind my head, click on them at a later time. Definitely after graduation. *PRAYING*. Well, after lamenting for an hour, thinking back now, Life isn't that bad afterall. ALL I need is just a genuine fortuitous moment. And prepare myself for future contingency. Happy moments are coming. *BIG SMILEEEEE*

JJ's 11.11

I was to jot this in yesterday, on the 11th day of the 11th month. A day meant for young couples. Doesn't it seem like it? "11" + "11". Definitely some scheme to make money *lol*

I misses this. Where we couldn't even stop arguing, on a day like this. I woke up early that day, heart-poundering, waiting for J. Rearranged my gift, tried making it as artistic as possible, for him and secretly hide it in the cupboard *smiling*. He reached and I pretended to just woke up from sleep; too tired to get out from bed; and asked him to get me something from the cupboard *its lame.hehe*. He opened it, looked at the lower shelves and said "What?". Ok, this totally went wrong. It was suppose to be romantic! Yeah, So I have to repeat myself, and told him to look at the Correct shelf *Rolling my eyes*. He looked, stunned, and turned round to smile. Sat down on the floor, started to open the package and eat. Hey, what about me? Yeah, I was waiting for MYYY present!! I kept silent through the hour, waiting for a SURPRISE. He said it was in his scooter, downstairs. All right! WOO HOO. Quickly got dressed to go lunch. Stood by his scooter, waiting for my prez. He took out an ugly-looking junk, those "Rocky" stuff you could get at the market. And it was bought in a bulk of 5, with endless cellaphane wrapped round it. This is so not happening... Yeah, I did look at him, looking stunned. He started to explain, I wouldn't listen, WOULDN'T BELIEVE. I just didn't want to talk to him. I was raging with fire. Words started to spit out by itself, "How not romantic, you said you have a surprise, this is not happening" goes on and on. Finally, He said "My dad ate it." I turned to look at him, mouth widely-open and before I knew, I burst out laughing. Correction. WE burst out laughing. He bought me my favourite sandwich, with double bacon and cheese, and my favourite strawberry juice. It's definitely one 11.11 that I will rmb for life. Yeah, and pester him over this for life. LOL.

Being a Cancerian

*This is ONLY strictly meant for Cancerians - Taken from biotrend in fb. Check it out*



There's a touch of shyness *Yeah, well?* in the Cancer personality, but it is finely mixed with a more assertive side, which can have them appear somewhat domineering in some situations. Even so, they are usually quite emphatic and responsive to the needs of their surroundings *This explains all CPS. Stop complaining. You're one Cancerian too. Durh*. This sign can have some underlying narcissistic elements to it, which can find a more problematic expression in unstable charts. There may be some gravitation to the limelight, and these natives often like to think of themselves as a kind of princes or princesses. *Applies to some ppl.ROFL*

This sign has active emotions in that they are constantly shifting, changing from one mood to another. At their worst, they may be cranky, touchy, sometimes even aggressive*Quite true*. It can sometimes be difficult to understand, being highly influenced (positively or negatively) by emotional patterns. As such, it can be rather whimsical and quite unpredictable at times.

It's not uncommon for Cancer individuals to have a change of heart half-way into things, however loyalties are also strong and they may stick to things on this precept.

They usually have strong maternal, protective instincts, a kind of mother hen. Family is usually very important to this sign, and these tend to be quite patriotic. They are clingy and do not react well to disloyalty - they usually make bonds which they expect to last forever. Of course, they invest a lot of themselves into these bonds. They are not superficial in most of the things they do. It is one of the more loyal, conscience-ridden signs. It is quite thoughtful *nodding vigorously*, at least while all goes well. It tends to be rather conservative in its demeanor.

Cancer people often long for something exciting and "magical". They are often conflicted between a certain pull to the limelight and the timid, self-protective side of their nature. They can be pretty dramatic, which can work well for the former. Cancer is actually one of the stronger signs of the zodiac. In aggressive circumstances, it is no less capable than the other creeper, Scorpio. It however, mostly does not revel in its sting, and is more preventative. They can sometimes be too aggressive in protecting that which is dear to them, perhaps unnecessarily so. *This is so darn true. Tribute to marv!*

画沙 / Sand Painting lyrics

画沙 / Sand Painting

周杰伦 - 袁咏琳




午后的风摇晃枝桠抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话在对你牵挂
晚风轻敲着岸沙浪浪堆积起无暇
我跟纯真载比傻爱上你放不下

这风景如画开满凤凰凤凰花
院子里花撒浇灌着那种情话
等最美的晚霞等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
会说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来决不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿
因为我爱你呀
将思念碾成花有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
像沙漏般想着你滴滴答答
擦美丽的指甲喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

不管多大风沙路多分岔我也一样找到你呀
管它风怎么刮管雨就怎么下
越痛我就越来越潇洒
不摘不属于自己的花
喔爱闪着泪光为你我可以当傻瓜

这风景如画开满凤凰凤凰花
院子里花撒浇灌着那种情话
等我们的通话等誓言落下

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
会说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来决不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿
因为我爱你呀
周杰伦+袁咏琳-画沙
用手中的流沙画一个你呀
会说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来决不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿
因为我爱你呀