Morning =)

It's 10 in the morning. Slept at 4 in the morn, as usual. Went to class and skipped breakfast. Now chasing after my fav drama :Jumong:. However, it's a little bored. Holy god, I missed 20 episodes. Left it at home. Now have to go through the endless thoughts of story in the middle. Hanging on to the movie now. Ciao

A day with Music

Slept throughout the night. Haven't had such a good sleep in the week. Well, what could I say? Feeling there are lots of thing yet to do. Doesn't have the time to relax. Paradise aren't here yet. However, today i decided to lay my fingers on piano. Which I ... yes .. procrastinated throughout previous years. There's this thump in my heart, a little painful, of the memories I used to have with my mentor. He's the best mentor I have ever met. Unfortunately, he have to return to his country years ago. He taught me with all his heart. Never held back his skills. He was so stern, yet so kind. The first thump came, when I realized I might have disappoint him. The second thump came, when I doesn't know where to meet him anymore. I miss you, prof. A lot. I want to repay the kindness you gave me. I want the chance again to prove to you that I am good and your effort are not in vain. Could I see you again? Music and you .....

One in the morning

Felt like spilling out my feelings. A little emotional, a little shaky. I told myself I shouldn't procrastinate anymore; but i failed. I tend to lose grasp of myself easily. An hour ago, I felt like cursing. Cursing everything that's getting in my way. Hell no. I kept my mouth shut. I held back. Yes I did. Because what the heck, this is life! I should get back to work this moment. Else not my gut would be shaken and i would perhaps curse that a**hole! Oops.....

I am afraid of your THOUGHTS

What do most ppl fear in life? Prolly you might have minor fears. Some have phobias. Some are too afraid that they push it back into their mind. But brains are very unique. The more you try to disguise yourself, the more you will reveal. Outsiders might not notice the tiny difference in you. Don't expect them to, because they are not you.

What am I afraid of ?? I do not have to crack my brains up or bring it to the operating table to do experiments on them; because my brain alerts me, and even played around with my hormones to send me information. Sometimes it heats up my blood temperature, causing my heart to thump hard against my chest. Then, I know my fear.

It is a bad experience not to listen to your brains. Or to un-acknowledge them; no matter in what sense. Why Einstein became Einstein?? Or L.D.Vinci became L.D.Vinci?? Why are you even thinking of being one of them? Lastly, why you can't just be solely yourself?

These days, I understood what was my biggest fear. And what most of the people out there who are facing the similar problems. I am afraid of YOU. Yes, you are reading it right! IT IS YOU. I talk to make you happy, write to make you satisfied, afraid to make you look bad, fear to tell you who I am. Today, I am taking off my mask, so I could live; in a world so perceptual, so judgemental. What about you?

An end to ASEAN Student Exchange Batch 2008

Sad but true, the trip to Korea had ended. I missed those times badly. I know, we have to move on, I knew. Prolly this is the reason this is memorable for each & everyone of us, being back where we belong. I made new friends, I knew things that I would never have cared in the past. I found the one i truly love, I do not have any idea where we would be in the next few years, but I cared and still cares, and it's deep down inside me.

Drink

TO MUM&DAD&BROS
TO PS&LK&JY
TO ppl who were worried

Just to let you know ~~ i Stopped drinking ~~ a long time ago. i dislike what i dislike. and i'm still JiaHuey ^^

LoveLove ~~ muack muackzz!

Just~~

Staying awake at 3am in the morning, listening to sentimental music~~makes me wanna splash everything out. the good,the bad, the sad & the happy ones. 12 hours of sleep and 10 today turns me mad. everything is fresh&clear. To my loyal fans ... i SO apologize for the delay. Life's been really busy recently, with ongoing exams, outings, parties & my part-time job as a counselor leaves me practically zero hour for philosophy. So here i am again, reminiscing about the past, taking the good and leaving the bad for today to start anew tomorrow. ^^

Something that Upsets Me

I'm jolly YEAH but i still go bonkers over some obnoxious ~ TOTALLY unreasonable people! Her nickname?? FIONA! She drains my blood & I'm so totally happie to skin her alive & throw her off the cliff. (if anything happens to her , its not me. she has uncountable enemies to begin with) Totally spread insane rumors which is none of her f***ing biz. I totally stood up to her face BUT got another friend into trouble. Oops sorry.

To "the terasa ones" , sometimes when i shut my mouth up doesn't mean that i don't give a damn. it is OK that you copied in class (which had been mine) BUT stop bragging & lying for heavens sake. Felt like shoving you upside down every moment you start acting cute&innocent which TOTALLY gross me out.

Felt really sad being branded as the uncapable ones. BUT hell NO i take that as a motivation. Wait&See.

aLways Rushing to class & couldn't enjoy my Lunch ==> food to my upmost pleasure. I remember the SpecialDay we had porkchop&chickenSoup?? which is a BONUS after having to put up with only edible vegetables&meat for the past 2 weeks BUT so sad BUT so true that there's only 15 mins to gulp everything down ~~ leaves no time to chew&taste (exaggerated version).

I missed my friends. So much recently that im dying to talk with you guys. I went gym-ing (yes i do exercise~~) the other day & so sudden i reminisces running on the treadmill with you, chit-chatting&panting&gossiping. Sitting on the sofa, out of breath ~~ thinking of the next activity. so Fun that i wanna do it with you again. Again ~~ yumchar-ing in KimGary at 3 in the afternoon ~~ talking away like nobody's biz ~~ i so so miss that gathering.

~~to be continued